Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Moving On

Hello ya lovely bunch.

Some of you may have noticed that I haven't posted for a while and that the last blog I did write was deleted. Well that's cause I was being a twat and accidentally deleted it and after that I couldn't face redoing it.

As the weeks passed I kept trying to figure out what I wanted to write and where I wanted to take my blog and eventually I made the decision to start a fresh with a brand new blog on a new platform with a brand spanking new URL.

I could have kept this URL as it's paid for but I just want to start over and instead of deleting all my old posts and starting over I've created a new site over at nicolajogston.wordpress.com.

It's still a work in progress but I would love it if my readers could head over there and follow me.

I would like to take this time to thank the few that have been reading and commenting on my posts it means a lot to me!!!

Monday, July 25, 2016

Chronic Illness And........An Introduction!

Hello and welcome to the first of many posts about Chronic Illness And............ (I've been planning on starting this feature for a while now, but life kind of got in the way and I wasn't in a writing mood for a few weeks, I'm back now though and I'm ready to get this show on the road)

The term chronic illnesses covers a whole multitude of illnesses such as Fibromyalgia, ME, Lupus, Crohns, Depression, Anxiety and many many more. All of which have their own sometimes long list of symptoms.

I wanted to create a feature all about what living with chronic illness is like! Someone who doesn't suffer a chronic illness doesn't always understand what its like to be dealing with a multitude of symptoms at one time, they don't get why you need to cancel on them last minute, they don't get how doing simple things like meeting for a coffee can be stressful and tiring. Thats what I want to talk about. Nothing is ever straight forward when you have a chronic illness, simple things like going out, getting proper healthcare is a struggle and for some it's a down right battle doing day to day activities that many people take for granted as being easy.

Many people who I've spoken to that have a chronic illness find that they have been met with negativity as people don't believe that they are ill because they don't look ill and I'm hoping that with this feature people who read the posts may get a better understand of what their friend, family member or colleague is going through.

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Guess whose back

Well good hello you lovely bunch.

You may or may not have noticed that I have been a little absent around these parts lately.

Sadly there was a bereavement in my extended family which effected me more than I expected. I wasn't especially close to my aunt in recent years but when I was younger I spent a lot of time with her and her family. She was always nice to me and that is what I felt like I lost.

There was some other family drama going on and I just wasn't in the right frame of mind to be writing if I had posted what I was thinking then and there I would have probably upset a few people and even though I was upset by them and their actions I wasn't going to play tit for tat.

I'm feeling better mentally but there are still some residual feelings that I have to work through but if I waited till all of that was resolved I would never get back into writing.

Over the next few weeks there might be a little bit of excessive posting for me to get up to date with my 52 Weeks of Gratitude challenge as well as the Love EVERY Body Revisited posts.

I also want to thank you all for taking time out of your day to read my posts and supporting me, it means more than you can imagine.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Social Media - 52WOG - #23

Living in the age of social media has its good points and it's bad points. 

For me the best thing about social media is that I can keep upto date & stay connected with family and friends but the rest of the world.  Being at home most of the time with just the dog and bubba to talk to I tend to go on Facebook, Twitter and other forms of social media to pass the time & see what's happening in the world when I'm not caring for Alex or tidying up the endless mess that is.

One of my favourite social media apps at the moment is snapxhat. Mostly I follow celebs and my favourite YouTubers, as well as some of my favourite bloggers. The video format allows me to feel more connected and on occasion get a well needed chuckle.

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Wee Dudes Update!!

When I started writing this post Alex aka Wee Dude had just turned 6 months and it felt like it was just yesterday but he turned 7 months on 2nd June. 

I would never believe it when people would say to cherish every moment of the early months because time would fly by, at first I didn't believe it but now I'm wondering where the last 7 months have gone!!! 

Thinking back the first few months are a bit of a blur filled with lots of nappy changes, breastfeeding challenges and sleep deprivation.  The months after the initial shock to the system are more clearer. We finally got ourselves into a family routine and caring from him is like second nature now. 

We've reached and passed so many milestones from his first giggle, (which is an amazing sound even now when he laughs I laugh it is that infectious) the first time he rolled over to his first tooth with so many more others jammed in between. 

It's amazing to watch how much he has changed over the 7 months. His personality is beginning to shine through. Whenever we are out its amazing how many people interact with him saying how cute he is. He's a little flirt batting his eye lashes it all the ladies. A few people have mentioned how much of a happy baby he is and he really is a happy baby. 

Watching him playing with toys & interacting with the dog or other people is fascinating to watch, you can see him trying to figure out how stuff works.  Most days his toys end up spread all over the living room and he isn't even mobile yet. I can only imagine how much chaos there will be when he starts crawling and walking. 

I love how excited he gets when he sees someone or something. When his daddy comes home from work his little arms and legs go ten to the dozen it's so cute. He's also started putting his arms up to tell us that he wants lifted it is so cute. 

Each and everyday since his arrival has been a blessing. Some days have been difficult but I wouldn't change any of them. I can't wait to see him crawl and take his first time and saying his first words. I can't wait to see him grow into a little boy then hopefully a gentlemen who will love, respect and treat each and everyone equally. 

Saturday, June 11, 2016

Summer time - 52WOG - #22

Summertime is the focus of the 22nd instalment of 52 Weeks of Gratitude series and boy am I happy that it is officially summertime. 

Now normally I am not a fan of heat but I do love the gorgeous blue skies that we have been getting recently (apart from today it's grey and bleurgh). They lighten my mood, even if a wake up feeling a bit rubbish if the sun is shining & the skies are blue instantly I feel better. Do other people feel like this too? 
Spring and summer seasons usually mean a small reprieve of the symptoms of fibromyalgia & with the increase of symptoms I've been experiencing I am hoping that the nicer weather will give me some relief even if it is just a little. 

Normally I would hide indoors during summer in the coolness with the fan on but this year I'm looking forward to getting out and about more for walks with the baba and the pup.  Maybe even braving the grounds & hitting the beach. 

What's your favourite thing about summertime?

Friday, June 03, 2016

He Put A Ring On It!! - 52WOG - #21

When it comes to jewellery I don't have a vast amount of it and what I do have a lot of it is costume. 

There are some items that mean a lot to me. Like a ring I have that belong to my Nana, necklaces that David has bought me over the years and gifts that I've received from family members. So choosing what would be my favourite piece of jewellery isn't as straight forward as you think. Each item has special meaning but if I was forced to say this is my favourite I guess I would choose my wedding and engagement rings.
 Ok technically those are 2 separate rings but they are like our marriage a partnership and they belong together. But those rings aren't simply pieces of jewellery they signify David and I's commitment to each other.
Do you have a favourite piece jewellery? 

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Dear Body - Love EVERY Body Revisited

Hello & welcome to the first of the Love EVERY Body Revisited posts.  Todays is all about the letter that I wrote to my body back in the first Love EVERY Body series back in January 2014.  If you are interested in reading that post you can check it out here or check it the entire series here

Reading back on what I wrote to my body back in January 2014 I realised that I promised to
"From now on body I am determined to treat you better and stop neglecting you I am going to eat better and take up yoga and hopefully swimming.  I will stop calling you fat and ugly and accept it when someone compliments us."
I started off with good intentions to do this and I was beginning to treat her with more respect, eating right but it all fell by the wayside I began to fall back into bad habits eating poorly and not doing yoga or swimming I still don't exercise as much as I want to.  The reason being that I'm scared that my body would give up on me and with a baby to look after I can't really take that chance.....I need to find an activity that won't wreck me for days after.

I didn't express feelings of hatred or love for my body more just feeling of regret for treating her so poorly but thinking back I did indeed hate my body at this stage - by the end of the series of posts my perception had changed a little and I began to like my lumps and bumps, they are a part of me and there isn't anything I could do to change them apart from taking drastic action and that wasn't going to be happening.

Since the end of Love EVERY Body up until recently my feelings were changing again but not for the better I was beginning to hate what I saw in the mirror. Everything I wear looks horrible on me and although I've never been someone who took pride in their appearance lately I would go out feeling like I resembled the Kathy Burke character Waynetta Slob although I am assured that I don't.
SOURCE - Google Images
My feelings towards my physical appearance may have soured, but my feelings about what my body is capable of have also changed not necessarily for the better but also not for the worse they've just changed somehow. 

I sometimes feel that my body is failing me especially when I'm in pain and it takes a few seconds for it to start moving after getting up in the morning or after I've been sitting down for some time. But I have come to the conclusion that my body is amazing, she created and carried life, she brought the most amazing little boy into the world all on her own...well with the help of da drugs, the midwives encouragement and the support of an amazing husband but she did that, well I did that!!